Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Goals

A very amazing, strong, determined woman gave me some goals tonight and inspired me to add some to that list.

Her list:
Take Responsibility for your own actions!>
I never realized how bad I am at this until she pointed it out to me! I am stubborn, selfish and irresponsible! At the same time I am accepting, service oriented and committed! How does that work you may ask? Your guess is as good as my own. I honestly needed to hear all of these things. Sometimes it takes the people you love and trust telling you your downfalls in order to figure them all out.
Start Saving!
If any of you know me you would know that I am TERRIBLE with my money. Yes I do work for EVERYTHING I have and get but I could have so much more if I didn't blow all my money away. My new goal is to have 1,000 dollars in a savings bond by the time I go to college and 500$ in checking too. I don't think this is an impossible goal. I will do it.
Believe in Yourself!
Now at this point in our conversation I was in tears and this is something I struggle with daily. She told me she is so proud of me and everything I do and she knows that I will do amazing things and will achieve all in life that I attempt. I will always remember this.

My list:
Make Family First!
I spend so much of my life worried about what others think that I tend to forget about my family and take them for granted. In less then a year my amazing sister who I look up to more than anyone else in the world will be married. Off to start her own family and I won't have her every day like now. Who knows what will happen 3 months from now. but right now I have all my family. I will keep it that way as long as I can.
Keep Sane!
Once school starts I know that I will be one busy sucker! I need to stay grounded. Start working on my Eagle, and keep the things I love a priority.
Keep Moving Forward
This is what I live by and I am constantly being reminded this is what I need to do. I love my mom.
I love my dad.
I love my grandma.
I love my sisters.
I love my friends.
I love my gospel.
I love my passion.

I love ....me.

Till next time!
love,
TK

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Define Normal

Define Normal
Really...
Can you do it?
As a society we define normal as;
Male: tall, dark and handsome.
Female: short, blonde and skinny.
Right?
Every single one of us has characteristics that make us "abnormal" in some way shape or form! The world constantly is reminding us any of these things;
"You're skin isn't perfect!"
"You're overweight!"
"You're too short!"
"You're too tall"
"You're too skinny!"
"You're butt is too big!"
"You're butt isn't big enough!"
"You're not pretty!"
"You're not handsome!"
"You're teeth aren't white!"
"You're not strong enough!"
"You're too slow!"
"You're not smart enough!"
And my favorite. The ones that manage to throw all your flaws into one sentence:
"You're just not good enough!"
or..
"You're not worth my freedom!"

Normal is boring. We as individuals need to start defining our own bodies, personalities and destinations! Really think about what makes you different and EMBRACE it.
Here is somethings I have felt at one time or another have been a "flaw"
too skinny, ugly, awkward, bad dancer, bad singer, bad actor, demanding, bossy, unrealable, and the worst one; a bad person.
I get lost in these things and loose myself! Not only do I loose myself but I loose my light! The light that I was given and that each of us have been blessed with! It is your responsibility to shine that light! Share it with the world! I loose who I am because of stupid little insecurities I have and I cut myself off from family, friends, and everything I love because I feel inadiquit.
Challenge yourself to look at the positives in life. Challenge yourself to remember who you are. Be smart, be safe! Take the worlds constant reminders of what you aren't and throw it back at them as what you are! Watch the people who you love, or who inspire you. Learn from others mistakes. Because you can't make every mistake on your own.

Remember you are loved. Cause even if the world has left you and you feel like no one is there. You still have God. All you need to do is listen.
Hoping someone is reading,
-TK