Monday, May 24, 2010

coming to a close

so as this school year comes to a close I have been asking myself a couple questions:

1. What did I learn?
2. What will I always take with me?
3. Did I have good friends?

first off! What did I learn? hmmmm Well let's start out with my pre calc class. . I learned that infinity is a big number, sometimes tmobile aps don't work in c hall, and that sleep is good on CHS math class desks! My history class is my favorite academic class ever! I have learned so much from coach Hulse yet, that man SCARES THE CRAP OUT OF ME!! So I think "RESPECT YOUR ELDERS AND FEAR THEM EVEN MORE" is a better lesson for that class. I have had the privilege to tutor a class of 29 wonderful sophomore students in math. That's funny considering how much I hate math, but I LOVE these kids. We started out really rocky but now these kids respect me and I respect them and it is amazing how much they have learned from me and the life lessons I have learned from them. In my dance company I have forged friendships with the smallest of small (ZUL!) and the tallest of tall (BREE!) and that goes along with my improved dance technique and overall understanding of how my body moves (sometimes not that majestically) Choir is always such a blast, yet I can never seem to wake up in time to be on time :) English is awesome and really easy too! Read, write, assignment, then bull crap the way through the rest! stage crew gave me an added connection to my next class, Productions... We started out as 12, young actors and an amazing director and with a couple added cast members who have settled their way too into my heart we have put on AMAZING shows!

What will I take with me? I will take so much with me from this year.. you know in ways I feel like a senior and I believed for the longest time that I was so done with high school and was ready to be on my own and in college already! But in reality.. I'm just a baby. Really! like I consider myself more mature for my age than most guys of my class (considering I don't have dance battles in the parking lot) but I am not ready to be at that level.. I still need to learn A LOT!! so the thing I will take with me for the longest is just to live in the present. As human beings I think we all try to look to the future and reach for our dreams but why?? Shouldn't we live in every moment and appreciate every breathe we take, every move we make? think about it..

Did I have good friends? You know through all the drama, tears, yelling, fighting, butt smacking, laughing, dancing, acting, singing, driving, piggy back rides, movies, and occasional swims. I can honestly say I have had the honor to have had surrounded myself with the most amazing group of friends. Austin is my best friend, my long lost brother and someone I look up to and he'll never know how much I appreciate everything he does for me. We laugh and agree on most everything and when we don't, we talk it through and our friendship is strengthened. Kelcee is my best friend, my boo;), my sister, and my second half. We are the nerds of CHS that everyone wants to be:) We laugh with eachother and sometimes cry. I can tell her anything and I love her dearly. I have plenty of others Lisha, Becca, Sienna, Alyssa, Makele, Macey, Jacob, and many many many more that have all influence my life in ways they'll never know!

That's my year... Tomorrow is the closing social and I'm not gonna lie, I'll probably cry.. I made Drama Club President and I am so excited to hit the ground running next year, I know I am going places... "If just one person believes in you, deep enough and strong enough believes in you, long enough and hard enough. It stands to reason, you yourself will start to see what everybody sees in you. then maybe even you, can believe in you, too..." I have many people who believe in me. I can do this..
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FOLLOWING THE DREAM people.
love, taylor

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Stresses

So lately I have had some stress.. Some being an understatement actually. The number one thing I hate (well one of them) is when people say they're so stressed! blah blah blah! but like I have been really stressed.. for reasons of privacy I wouldn't want to disclose names and what not but lets just say I hate the fact that some guys get away with murder, and not a single person says anything to them.
I have been dating a lot lately, which has been fun. Getting back in touch with old friends, singing (like always), I decided not to participate on the CHS dance company next year and for the first time (and I regret to say this) I removed myself from a show... They casted me knowing all the conflicts I had in my busy schedule and within the first month of rehearsals I attended 3 out of 15 rehearsals! It became unfair to the cast, crew, and myself to continue with the show so I left.. :(
It become increasingly difficult to maintain a relationship with the adults in my life.. I feel like the people I have respected and looked up to for such a long time are all leaving me for selfish petty reasons and they don't understand that they're giving up on me not sending a message to the people in charge. I will always respect what they've done for me but not what they are doing TO me.
I love, live for, and admire my family and friends for all they do for me and I wouldn't give up on them ever.
Thanks for reading:)