Someone told me last night that I was "perfect." Take it as a compliment? That is hard for me. I am a lot of things but "perfect" I am not. No one is for that matter. I have been trying to write more and more lately and really take the time to think about the things in my life that make me happy. Now expanding on this idea of me being "perfect" I asked myself, "why?" Why does this person think that me, Taylor Knuth, is perfect?
I came up with a concept though. As you can tell from the title it is called "A Beautiful Mess" Pretty self explanatory right? I'll elaborate. That is what I am! No I am not conceded and I am not calling myself Beautiful. I think that every single person on this Earth is a "Beautiful Mess." You constantly hear the world tell you what you can't do and what is "socially acceptable." Well I am a mess! I am constantly shouting back at the world telling THEM what I can do and why I AM socially UNACCEPTABLE! How is that?
I look at this person who told me this and all I can think is "Oh my goodness YOU'RE perfect!!" Nothing and no one will ever be perfect though. "But a person does not have to be perfect to be exactly what you need". I love that quote but I want to think about things differently. This person is not perfect. I'm not perfect. My world is not perfect! But one thing I am and that she is, is a beautiful mess. I am abrasive, rude, upfront, loud, outspoken, impatient, and stubborn. Most people will never hear me admit I am wrong. But I know one day, someone will look at me and ALL my faults and take every single one in and really love me. That's love. To admit you are a beautiful mess and find one single person willing to take all your garbage and love it along with everything else.
I am a beautiful mess.
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Update
So I get it, it's been FOREVER!! But don't you even worry, I have been GREAT!!:)
What to say... School! Okay, so school is so stressful! Like always! 3 shows at once is never a good idea people! Goodness. I am so HAPPY though! Me and an old friend talked things through recently. We're great! He really is such an amazing guy and I am glad we got rid of the contention between us! Theatre... awe:) I still love you. So much. Our shows have rocked so far and when we put up Cinderella it will be amazing! Family... wow. My oldest sister and best friend is GETTING MARRIED! It still makes me so happy to know she will be with the man of her dreams for the rest of her life! My relationship with my mother and father are better than ever and for the first time in a long time I am really scared to leave my family.. It makes me wonder if I'll be able to handle life without such strong people to fall back on! Friends... friends! I just love them! They all are so talented, strong, fun, and caring. I would be lost without each of them to guide me. Austin- He's the therapist of the bunch and I tell him anything and everything. Kelcee- Well she is my partner in crime, my other half, my everything:) Lisha- Lisha is the most caring, understanding person that I know. She is beautiful and I'd be lost spiritually without her answering all my many questions!
I haven't wanted to blog for a while cause all I could think about was negative things.. things that ya, when I write them down could/might be inspirational. But the negative in my life is a spec compared to all the many amazing, great things in my life. I am a good person. I know that now. I am worth so much. I know that now.
I am strong.
I know that now.
In my english class my teacher asked me to write some rules to MY life. These are what I came up with
Work Hard - How simple yet complex is that! Dang. Can you imagine the world if every person worked hard and pulled their own weight?
Pay Attention- I am a firm believer that most conflict and contention stems from poor communication and people not listening or.. PAYING ATTENTION!
Have Passion- For me this one had to be there. My passion is obviously THEATRE.. What's yours? Do you know? Life is only as good as the things you put in it. Is your passion worth your time?
Fall in Love- sigh* This is perhaps the most important one by far. No matter what a human does in his/her individual life's, in my opinion, Love is the most important.
Now I know this is kind of short and sweet but me, Taylor Knuth, I am doing great.
And right now, words cannot express how much Love I have.
PS.. If you were wondering, I am dating a girl who makes me so happy, she makes me want to be a better person and most of all, she makes me want to be myself and that is the most important thing in the world. <3
What to say... School! Okay, so school is so stressful! Like always! 3 shows at once is never a good idea people! Goodness. I am so HAPPY though! Me and an old friend talked things through recently. We're great! He really is such an amazing guy and I am glad we got rid of the contention between us! Theatre... awe:) I still love you. So much. Our shows have rocked so far and when we put up Cinderella it will be amazing! Family... wow. My oldest sister and best friend is GETTING MARRIED! It still makes me so happy to know she will be with the man of her dreams for the rest of her life! My relationship with my mother and father are better than ever and for the first time in a long time I am really scared to leave my family.. It makes me wonder if I'll be able to handle life without such strong people to fall back on! Friends... friends! I just love them! They all are so talented, strong, fun, and caring. I would be lost without each of them to guide me. Austin- He's the therapist of the bunch and I tell him anything and everything. Kelcee- Well she is my partner in crime, my other half, my everything:) Lisha- Lisha is the most caring, understanding person that I know. She is beautiful and I'd be lost spiritually without her answering all my many questions!
I haven't wanted to blog for a while cause all I could think about was negative things.. things that ya, when I write them down could/might be inspirational. But the negative in my life is a spec compared to all the many amazing, great things in my life. I am a good person. I know that now. I am worth so much. I know that now.
I am strong.
I know that now.
In my english class my teacher asked me to write some rules to MY life. These are what I came up with
Work Hard - How simple yet complex is that! Dang. Can you imagine the world if every person worked hard and pulled their own weight?
Pay Attention- I am a firm believer that most conflict and contention stems from poor communication and people not listening or.. PAYING ATTENTION!
Have Passion- For me this one had to be there. My passion is obviously THEATRE.. What's yours? Do you know? Life is only as good as the things you put in it. Is your passion worth your time?
Fall in Love- sigh* This is perhaps the most important one by far. No matter what a human does in his/her individual life's, in my opinion, Love is the most important.
Now I know this is kind of short and sweet but me, Taylor Knuth, I am doing great.
And right now, words cannot express how much Love I have.
PS.. If you were wondering, I am dating a girl who makes me so happy, she makes me want to be a better person and most of all, she makes me want to be myself and that is the most important thing in the world. <3
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