Sometimes I catch myself starring blankly into a wall. And I stop. Listen. Breath. Take it all in. And really look at myself for that minuscule amount of time and I think, "how can someone who messes up as much as I do be forgiven and loved constantly?"
I; by no means, have not lead the picture perfect life. But looking back on my life I can really see that the things and people who should have been in my life and that I missed out on all were not there for a reason! And that because they weren't there I was blessed even more!
My grandma, mom, and sisters are all amazing human beings and they keep me on the right path daily. I love them with all my heart and soul. But who I want to write about is my dad.
I haven't realized until recently how much of an amazing man he really is. He is, to me at least, the text book definition of "keep moving forward!" Really. He by no means has lived anywhere close to a sheltered life. He has experienced the highest highs and the lowest lows. Isn't that what life is all about though? I don't think our heavenly father just gave us free agency to sit up there and watch us screw up and laugh lo the while. He did it so we can really appreciate the moments where time seems to go away and all your cares and worries disappear. When a mother holds her child in her hands for the first time and wonders how she could create Something so perfect. Or a man gets down on one knee and puts his heart out on his sleeve all for one human being to be his forever and always. Or even when you realize a loved one has passed and you reflect on the person they were and the legacy they left behind. Life is all about the mountains. You have to live through the rough times and living in the good times.
My dad is my hero. Because even when he's down. He always gets back up. No matter what. Yeah he may make a lot of mistakes. And ya they may be big huge mistakes. But he always remembers to "keep moving forward."
So when you're in that cavern of darkness at the bottom of the mountain and you dont want to climb up the mountain for the happiness in life. Remember that we're all imperfect. But we were made in the image of a perfect being. And I'm proud to say I'm "perfectly imperfect."
Till next time.
-tay
