perfectly imperfect

Sometimes I catch myself starring blankly into a wall. And I stop. Listen. Breath. Take it all in. And really look at myself for that minuscule amount of time and I think, "how can someone who messes up as much as I do be forgiven and loved constantly?"
I; by no means, have not lead the picture perfect life. But looking back on my life I can really see that the things and people who should have been in my life and that I missed out on all were not there for a reason! And that because they weren't there I was blessed even more!
My grandma, mom, and sisters are all amazing human beings and they keep me on the right path daily. I love them with all my heart and soul. But who I want to write about is my dad.
I haven't realized until recently how much of an amazing man he really is. He is, to me at least, the text book definition of "keep moving forward!" Really. He by no means has lived anywhere close to a sheltered life. He has experienced the highest highs and the lowest lows. Isn't that what life is all about though? I don't think our heavenly father just gave us free agency to sit up there and watch us screw up and laugh lo the while. He did it so we can really appreciate the moments where time seems to go away and all your cares and worries disappear. When a mother holds her child in her hands for the first time and wonders how she could create Something so perfect. Or a man gets down on one knee and puts his heart out on his sleeve all for one human being to be his forever and always. Or even when you realize a loved one has passed and you reflect on the person they were and the legacy they left behind. Life is all about the mountains. You have to live through the rough times and living in the good times.
My dad is my hero. Because even when he's down. He always gets back up. No matter what. Yeah he may make a lot of mistakes. And ya they may be big huge mistakes. But he always remembers to "keep moving forward."
So when you're in that cavern of darkness at the bottom of the mountain and you dont want to climb up the mountain for the happiness in life. Remember that we're all imperfect. But we were made in the image of a perfect being. And I'm proud to say I'm "perfectly imperfect."
Till next time.
-tay

A Beautiful Mess

Someone told me last night that I was "perfect." Take it as a compliment? That is hard for me. I am a lot of things but "perfect" I am not. No one is for that matter. I have been trying to write more and more lately and really take the time to think about the things in my life that make me happy. Now expanding on this idea of me being "perfect" I asked myself, "why?" Why does this person think that me, Taylor Knuth, is perfect?
I came up with a concept though. As you can tell from the title it is called "A Beautiful Mess" Pretty self explanatory right? I'll elaborate. That is what I am! No I am not conceded and I am not calling myself Beautiful. I think that every single person on this Earth is a "Beautiful Mess." You constantly hear the world tell you what you can't do and what is "socially acceptable." Well I am a mess! I am constantly shouting back at the world telling THEM what I can do and why I AM socially UNACCEPTABLE! How is that?
I look at this person who told me this and all I can think is "Oh my goodness YOU'RE perfect!!" Nothing and no one will ever be perfect though. "But a person does not have to be perfect to be exactly what you need". I love that quote but I want to think about things differently. This person is not perfect. I'm not perfect. My world is not perfect! But one thing I am and that she is, is a beautiful mess. I am abrasive, rude, upfront, loud, outspoken, impatient, and stubborn. Most people will never hear me admit I am wrong. But I know one day, someone will look at me and ALL my faults and take every single one in and really love me. That's love. To admit you are a beautiful mess and find one single person willing to take all your garbage and love it along with everything else.
I am a beautiful mess.

Update

So I get it, it's been FOREVER!! But don't you even worry, I have been GREAT!!:)

What to say... School! Okay, so school is so stressful! Like always! 3 shows at once is never a good idea people! Goodness. I am so HAPPY though! Me and an old friend talked things through recently. We're great! He really is such an amazing guy and I am glad we got rid of the contention between us! Theatre... awe:) I still love you. So much. Our shows have rocked so far and when we put up Cinderella it will be amazing! Family... wow. My oldest sister and best friend is GETTING MARRIED! It still makes me so happy to know she will be with the man of her dreams for the rest of her life! My relationship with my mother and father are better than ever and for the first time in a long time I am really scared to leave my family.. It makes me wonder if I'll be able to handle life without such strong people to fall back on! Friends... friends! I just love them! They all are so talented, strong, fun, and caring. I would be lost without each of them to guide me. Austin- He's the therapist of the bunch and I tell him anything and everything. Kelcee- Well she is my partner in crime, my other half, my everything:) Lisha- Lisha is the most caring, understanding person that I know. She is beautiful and I'd be lost spiritually without her answering all my many questions!
I haven't wanted to blog for a while cause all I could think about was negative things.. things that ya, when I write them down could/might be inspirational. But the negative in my life is a spec compared to all the many amazing, great things in my life. I am a good person. I know that now. I am worth so much. I know that now.
I am strong.
I know that now.
In my english class my teacher asked me to write some rules to MY life. These are what I came up with
Work Hard - How simple yet complex is that! Dang. Can you imagine the world if every person worked hard and pulled their own weight?
Pay Attention- I am a firm believer that most conflict and contention stems from poor communication and people not listening or.. PAYING ATTENTION!
Have Passion- For me this one had to be there. My passion is obviously THEATRE.. What's yours? Do you know? Life is only as good as the things you put in it. Is your passion worth your time?
Fall in Love- sigh* This is perhaps the most important one by far. No matter what a human does in his/her individual life's, in my opinion, Love is the most important.

Now I know this is kind of short and sweet but me, Taylor Knuth, I am doing great.
And right now, words cannot express how much Love I have.

PS.. If you were wondering, I am dating a girl who makes me so happy, she makes me want to be a better person and most of all, she makes me want to be myself and that is the most important thing in the world. <3

Goals

A very amazing, strong, determined woman gave me some goals tonight and inspired me to add some to that list.

Her list:
Take Responsibility for your own actions!>
I never realized how bad I am at this until she pointed it out to me! I am stubborn, selfish and irresponsible! At the same time I am accepting, service oriented and committed! How does that work you may ask? Your guess is as good as my own. I honestly needed to hear all of these things. Sometimes it takes the people you love and trust telling you your downfalls in order to figure them all out.
Start Saving!
If any of you know me you would know that I am TERRIBLE with my money. Yes I do work for EVERYTHING I have and get but I could have so much more if I didn't blow all my money away. My new goal is to have 1,000 dollars in a savings bond by the time I go to college and 500$ in checking too. I don't think this is an impossible goal. I will do it.
Believe in Yourself!
Now at this point in our conversation I was in tears and this is something I struggle with daily. She told me she is so proud of me and everything I do and she knows that I will do amazing things and will achieve all in life that I attempt. I will always remember this.

My list:
Make Family First!
I spend so much of my life worried about what others think that I tend to forget about my family and take them for granted. In less then a year my amazing sister who I look up to more than anyone else in the world will be married. Off to start her own family and I won't have her every day like now. Who knows what will happen 3 months from now. but right now I have all my family. I will keep it that way as long as I can.
Keep Sane!
Once school starts I know that I will be one busy sucker! I need to stay grounded. Start working on my Eagle, and keep the things I love a priority.
Keep Moving Forward
This is what I live by and I am constantly being reminded this is what I need to do. I love my mom.
I love my dad.
I love my grandma.
I love my sisters.
I love my friends.
I love my gospel.
I love my passion.

I love ....me.

Till next time!
love,
TK

Define Normal

Define Normal
Really...
Can you do it?
As a society we define normal as;
Male: tall, dark and handsome.
Female: short, blonde and skinny.
Right?
Every single one of us has characteristics that make us "abnormal" in some way shape or form! The world constantly is reminding us any of these things;
"You're skin isn't perfect!"
"You're overweight!"
"You're too short!"
"You're too tall"
"You're too skinny!"
"You're butt is too big!"
"You're butt isn't big enough!"
"You're not pretty!"
"You're not handsome!"
"You're teeth aren't white!"
"You're not strong enough!"
"You're too slow!"
"You're not smart enough!"
And my favorite. The ones that manage to throw all your flaws into one sentence:
"You're just not good enough!"
or..
"You're not worth my freedom!"

Normal is boring. We as individuals need to start defining our own bodies, personalities and destinations! Really think about what makes you different and EMBRACE it.
Here is somethings I have felt at one time or another have been a "flaw"
too skinny, ugly, awkward, bad dancer, bad singer, bad actor, demanding, bossy, unrealable, and the worst one; a bad person.
I get lost in these things and loose myself! Not only do I loose myself but I loose my light! The light that I was given and that each of us have been blessed with! It is your responsibility to shine that light! Share it with the world! I loose who I am because of stupid little insecurities I have and I cut myself off from family, friends, and everything I love because I feel inadiquit.
Challenge yourself to look at the positives in life. Challenge yourself to remember who you are. Be smart, be safe! Take the worlds constant reminders of what you aren't and throw it back at them as what you are! Watch the people who you love, or who inspire you. Learn from others mistakes. Because you can't make every mistake on your own.

Remember you are loved. Cause even if the world has left you and you feel like no one is there. You still have God. All you need to do is listen.
Hoping someone is reading,
-TK

Poetry..

It's hard.. It really is. To think about what I had and that now it is lost, but did I really loose you?
That has been on my mind for a while now.
For those of you who don't know I lost my grandma to the terrible disease, cancer, on January 31, 2007. She was not only my grandma but she was my best friend, my 2nd mom, my home away from home, and my everything.
Her name was Sandra Kae Marquart, but I simply called her Grandma. Her cooking was amazing, her hands always soft, and her heart and home always open and warm.
She was diagnosed with cancer around the beginning of summer in 2006. As the months progressed she became weaker, lost her hair, lost her memory, and on my 14 birthday; lost her battle with cancer. On MY day she left me... is that selfish of me to say? For 3 years now I have had to stay happy on my birthday despite the fact that all I really ever want to do is hide out in my room and cry. I share the one day of the year that should be all about me with the one person in the world I wish I could see. What is wrong with me? Every year I look at the same amazingly cool Spider man cake my mom always gets for me. Every year another candle added, but the wish stays the same. To hold her in my arms just one more time. I get so angry that she left this Earth on my day, but then I remember.. It isn't that I lost her on my birthday. I gained her memory every second of my birthday. I feel her more in that 24 hours than any other day of the year. She walks with me, talks to me, sings with me and laughs at me and the crazy things I do. Ya the tears won't every completely go away after I blow out my candles.. But I still can't wait for that one day of the year when she is with me stronger than ever and even more so, the day when I can walk next to her and be at complete peace with myself and the entire world.
I have struggled for a long time to understand why God took her away from me when I needed her most in life. I have selfishly held on to her memory and have not been able to move on in my own life. Have I found the healthy balance between moving on in my own life but yet still keeping her memory alive in my life as well?
Around this time of the year I especially think about her often. Very seldom do I cry anymore. That usually only happens on my birthday and Christmas.
I miss her.
I write a blog as you can tell but I also write Poetry. (Well try to at least) This is a Poem I wrote about a month after my grandma passed and I really have never shared it publicly. I am ready to now.


Guardian Angel


So many questions that I have for you,
Like why did you have to leave so soon?
You were a Friend, a Grandma, and a Mom,
It's so hard to believe that now you are gone.
You were 65 and still going strong,
But four months later something went so very wrong.
You got cancer and became deathly ill,
And through out the months you began to be still.
As you got sicker our Love became stronger,
It kills me inside that you didn't stay longer.
Birthdays, Christmas and Halloween,
So many great memories that we have all seen.
You inspired me to do what I Love,
And I know you're watching from above.
You were beautiful inside and out,
You taught me what life is all about.
Cherish your loved ones, no matter what they do,
Because nothing can change how much the Love you.
It was my birthday, what a joyous day,
But God had different plans and wouldn't let you stay.
So now you're in heaven what a wonderful thing,
To see God and Jesus, and hear Angels sing.
People have come and people have went,
But you were our angel that God had sent.
To keep the family together through thick and thin,
You were the reason we never gave in.
You were a fighter; and fought till the end,
Now a message of love we would all like to send.
It's time to move on and stop all the crying,
Because we know you in heaven and finally flying.
So the end of this poem comes a message of love,
We're never alone you're always watching from above.

Written By: Taylor Knuth

Till next time everyone.
-TK

Let the Sunshine In

My creative drive has been down lately! And darnit I have not been able to think of anything to release my daily struggles with BUT writing/blogging! I know it sounds odd but as my fingers move across my laptop from homerow to the next letter I release all my fears, all my stupid insecurities, all my pain, and most importantly; all my worries. The constant bluggering of the World telling me I am not good enough is gone and it is just me, my mind, and my laptop busy at writing down my feelings.
I like to think of topics before hand for my Blog. I'll ask a few close friends, get their advise and go from there but once I am actually sitting down typing..
WHO KNOWS WHAT WILL COME OUT OF MY MIND!
Today I had the chance to see a Broadway hit Hair, The American Tribal Love-Rock Musical. Yes, the rumors ARE true. There is full frontal nudity in the Act I Finale. And YES! I know! Shame on me! I went on a Sunday.
This show was more than nudity, drugs, sex, war, or even hippies. It was simply beautiful. Like I can't use any other word.
BEAUTIFUL
Wow. You know I see A LOT of shows, and only a few ever really make an impression on my life. This one did! It taught me a really big lesson that I have been working on solidifying.
Life is beautiful, appreciate the blessings in life; no matter how small.
Isn't that true? In the directors notes I was really impressed with what he said "Hair isn't really about hippies, nudity, drugs or sex. It's about finding one's place. Eliminating extremes and discarding labels so that maybe, just maybe. It's possible to have a conversation that leads to understanding and change."
-Jerry Rapier
Now let us take this out of the context of this show and apply it to life. Isn't THAT true? This show and this exact statement couldn't have come at a more critical point in my life then now. When I have been trying every day to find beauty and joy in life!
I had a really good adult conversation with a close friend recently. In this conversation we cried and laughed and threw everyting out on the table and we were completely vulnerable to eachother and that made me appreciate her. I learn from another friend everyday the importance of staying strong and being a pilar of light and love no matter what anyone says or does and that makes me apprecaite him every single moment of my life. I love dearly a friend that works harder than anyone when she wants something. Who suffers through 12 hour days just to graduate. Who has the courage and strength no one can match and I love her dearly and that makes me appreciate her. I look at another friend and I see the world is sending him through a maze of trials and he has lost the spirit I once loved about him. But that makes me pray harder and harder for him and I send him MY love and MY light every day but that is why I appreciate him.
Today in church we were learning about having complete faith and listening to the prophet even when what he asks of us is hard. Read Kings 19:9-13.
"Be Strong, and of good courage. Be not afraid, stand firm in the faith. For the Lord will be with us, where ever we go. Be one, Be his, Be strong."
till next time,
-TK

PureBliss:)

So I have been having the summer of my life, really. I haven't really done anything like adventure wise or even exciting. I just really have been relaxing, working, hanging out, and really trying to find myself and what makes me happy and what doesn't. I have learned a lot about myself in the days since junior years end.
such as:
- I do not need to be constantly running to feel accomplished, not doing a summer show is OKAY!
- I just love my friends. They all are realiable, comforting, trustworthy, and honest.
- Family is my rock. They keep me grounded, especially my mom.
- Summer time is "PureBliss"
- I enjoy having a job and working. Not for the money but to just get out of the house, away from the troubles of family and friends and to relieve stress.
- Religion is what I was missing in my life<3
- Blogging is Love, Life and Passion all mixed together:)
- And as cheesy as this sounds I have learned above all else; Is just to love, and be loved in return.
Really. People can have all the money or women or whatever your guilty pleasure is, but if you don't have some form of love; weather it be the simple love of siblings, or the amazing pure love of religion, or the passionate love of soul mates. Love is love and I really hope and pray that every human being on this Earth will experience love in their lifetime. If you're reading this I challenge you to write down what you love or who you love. But even more important, write down who you know loves you. Because you cannot forget that the second part of that life lesson; is to be loved in return. You must have both in my opinion to feel and know what I am talking about.
I just have been so greatful for the many blessing I have been given and all the opportunities I have in my life to share my light and to share other peoples light.
Till next time,
-TK

YASE!!!

So this past week I spent the most amazing, influential, awesome 5 days with some of the most AMAZING people I will ever meet in my life! Young Ambassadors and all the campers!
The week started out kind of "rough" so to speak. I went to YASE knowing absolutly no body and didn't have the best audition because, yet again, I was lacking confidence! To be honest I had no idea what I was getting myself into.. If any of you know me you know that I hace been an "inactive member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints" Well needless to say that the amazing spirit and the amazing people that I felt and met this past week have changed my life for good.
This whole experience was a whirl wind of emotion, physical activity, crazy fun, and girls:) haha
My counselors' name was Scott, if you don't know Scott he is just absolutly AMAZING! Spiritually he can lift up a whole camp, and with his voice he can belt like no other! I just love this man! If it weren't for Scott I would have been lost both physically and spiritually this whole week. Every night I looked forward to the "Devo" he gave and the nights we didn't get one just weren't the same! He really has been a great influence in my life. Thank you!
Leslie! Oh my goodness Leslie! I just love her too! Tuesday night I sang my solo in the showcase and I came out of it feeling a little down that I didn't do as good as I would have liked! So I walked outside and she just looked and me and said the nicest things and I was lifted up so high! That whole week "lolipop Leslie" guided me through the crazy schedule and was such an amazing FRIEND to me. Not only is she just absolutly GORGEOUS she is kind and smart and funny:)
I had an amazing experience with one of the girl campers down there. NO! I am not talking about "I got her number" or "She is my eternal lover" but like this girl I got to talking to one night and pretty soon we both had our life stories layed out on the table and I found out that my life may suck at times but there are plenty of people just like me. She knows who she is if she is reading this. Thank you. You are a beautiful, talented girl that will change the world one day just like you changed me.
Thank you to Heather, Madi, Hannah, Chandler, Quitin, Dallen, Brenner, Calleb, Alana, Rick, Alan, Randy Boothe, Todd, Summarisa, DASHA, Abe, Taylor, Megan and all the other amazing friends I met! I just love you all. I owe you all so much for changing my attitude about life and the church.
For any of you who don't know what YASE is; look into it. Young Ambassadors Singing Entertainers.
Thank you.

chip on my shoulder..

"There's a chip on my shoulder
And it's big as a boulder
With the chance I've been given
I'm gonna be driven as hell

I'm so close I can taste it
So I'm not gonna waste it
Yeah, there's a chip on my shoulder
You might wanna get one as well"

ok so lately I have been finding inspiration in the most random things.

The more and more I look around me I realize how blessed I really am. I was listening to this song and this is me. The passion I have can honestly be the biggest pain in my butt but in the end, it will bring me where I want to be.

I have realized something that I do A LOT! I constantly compare myself to certain people and I feel somewhat lesser of a human to them.. That's not true. I love myself. And that has taken such a long time for me to realize. And me looking up to these certain people is not "unhealthy".. it's a good thing. I feed off their passion. It fuels my own passion. . and My passion, is fueled from my hunger for success... I just want the people who I get my inspiration from to know that they're part of the reason I keep moving forward everyday.
My Mom<3
Austin Hull
Kelcee ToynE
Lisha Lynn Michele
Jaron Barney
Ana Lemke
Samantha Knuth
Brandon Hall
Laura McDermott
Sandra Kae Marquart
and Sarah Remerez... I just love Grey's Anatomy..
much love
-tk

Oh goodness

"After awhile you learn the difference between holding a hand, and falling in love. You begin to learn that kisses don't always mean something, and promises can be broken just as quickly as they're made, and sometimes.. Goodbyes really are forever"
I just stumbled upon this quote and it could not have come at a more perfect time.. Today has been a rough day needless to say. For some reason I just can't get her off my mind and I don't know how to fix that. Is that Goodbye REALLY forever? I mean, I don't understand what I have done, did, or doing..
I try to remain upbeat and positive but it just gets difficult. Fighting sucks.
College sucks! I am not even in yet and I am so stressed out about it.
What if I don't get into a school I want?
What if I don't get in ANYWHERE?
What if I do?
till next time.
-TK

coming to a close

so as this school year comes to a close I have been asking myself a couple questions:

1. What did I learn?
2. What will I always take with me?
3. Did I have good friends?

first off! What did I learn? hmmmm Well let's start out with my pre calc class. . I learned that infinity is a big number, sometimes tmobile aps don't work in c hall, and that sleep is good on CHS math class desks! My history class is my favorite academic class ever! I have learned so much from coach Hulse yet, that man SCARES THE CRAP OUT OF ME!! So I think "RESPECT YOUR ELDERS AND FEAR THEM EVEN MORE" is a better lesson for that class. I have had the privilege to tutor a class of 29 wonderful sophomore students in math. That's funny considering how much I hate math, but I LOVE these kids. We started out really rocky but now these kids respect me and I respect them and it is amazing how much they have learned from me and the life lessons I have learned from them. In my dance company I have forged friendships with the smallest of small (ZUL!) and the tallest of tall (BREE!) and that goes along with my improved dance technique and overall understanding of how my body moves (sometimes not that majestically) Choir is always such a blast, yet I can never seem to wake up in time to be on time :) English is awesome and really easy too! Read, write, assignment, then bull crap the way through the rest! stage crew gave me an added connection to my next class, Productions... We started out as 12, young actors and an amazing director and with a couple added cast members who have settled their way too into my heart we have put on AMAZING shows!

What will I take with me? I will take so much with me from this year.. you know in ways I feel like a senior and I believed for the longest time that I was so done with high school and was ready to be on my own and in college already! But in reality.. I'm just a baby. Really! like I consider myself more mature for my age than most guys of my class (considering I don't have dance battles in the parking lot) but I am not ready to be at that level.. I still need to learn A LOT!! so the thing I will take with me for the longest is just to live in the present. As human beings I think we all try to look to the future and reach for our dreams but why?? Shouldn't we live in every moment and appreciate every breathe we take, every move we make? think about it..

Did I have good friends? You know through all the drama, tears, yelling, fighting, butt smacking, laughing, dancing, acting, singing, driving, piggy back rides, movies, and occasional swims. I can honestly say I have had the honor to have had surrounded myself with the most amazing group of friends. Austin is my best friend, my long lost brother and someone I look up to and he'll never know how much I appreciate everything he does for me. We laugh and agree on most everything and when we don't, we talk it through and our friendship is strengthened. Kelcee is my best friend, my boo;), my sister, and my second half. We are the nerds of CHS that everyone wants to be:) We laugh with eachother and sometimes cry. I can tell her anything and I love her dearly. I have plenty of others Lisha, Becca, Sienna, Alyssa, Makele, Macey, Jacob, and many many many more that have all influence my life in ways they'll never know!

That's my year... Tomorrow is the closing social and I'm not gonna lie, I'll probably cry.. I made Drama Club President and I am so excited to hit the ground running next year, I know I am going places... "If just one person believes in you, deep enough and strong enough believes in you, long enough and hard enough. It stands to reason, you yourself will start to see what everybody sees in you. then maybe even you, can believe in you, too..." I have many people who believe in me. I can do this..

FOLLOWING THE DREAM people.
love, taylor

Stresses

So lately I have had some stress.. Some being an understatement actually. The number one thing I hate (well one of them) is when people say they're so stressed! blah blah blah! but like I have been really stressed.. for reasons of privacy I wouldn't want to disclose names and what not but lets just say I hate the fact that some guys get away with murder, and not a single person says anything to them.
I have been dating a lot lately, which has been fun. Getting back in touch with old friends, singing (like always), I decided not to participate on the CHS dance company next year and for the first time (and I regret to say this) I removed myself from a show... They casted me knowing all the conflicts I had in my busy schedule and within the first month of rehearsals I attended 3 out of 15 rehearsals! It became unfair to the cast, crew, and myself to continue with the show so I left.. :(
It become increasingly difficult to maintain a relationship with the adults in my life.. I feel like the people I have respected and looked up to for such a long time are all leaving me for selfish petty reasons and they don't understand that they're giving up on me not sending a message to the people in charge. I will always respect what they've done for me but not what they are doing TO me.
I love, live for, and admire my family and friends for all they do for me and I wouldn't give up on them ever.
Thanks for reading:)

New Job..

So i started my new job a couple days ago and I do have to say it was one of the scariest moments ever! If you don't already I know I work at ihop and I have for 3 years now and i have been ready to start something new for a long time but have been scared.. change is scary you know? Well I did it! Meet the newest "Seafood Expert Cleaner" to grace the building of Red Lobster. It's different I will say that, but it is new and I think I really like it and it will be a great source of income and will be good help for my sanity cause ihop people are INSANE!! On a different note I had a scare recently, I thought I was going to loose the most important woman in my life and things are still uncertain but for now my family is safe a secure.. that's all that matters right?

Learning: Don't take things for granted!

so! In the past couple weeks or month or so I have learned a lot..
like 1- second chances are actually like one millionth chances and I shouldn't give them to certain people. example: not given. 2- I have been a little off track on my ways of thinking and after much thought and pondering I am in a much better state of mind. 3- I need to start writing again.. it helps me get things out that I can't do verbally. 4- I DO have friends and family that love me and I need to start opening up and letting them in. 5- Loosing is OK... Crying is OK... being upset, yeah that's OK too. 6- Theatre is my passion, before I just thought it was, now I know. You know I may not be the best at it but my hunger for success is fuelled by my passion and that is something a lot of people lack. I love my family and friends. I have been blessed in the oddest of ways. Sometimes it takes a while to notice the little blessings God gives us everyday like; a home, loving mother and sisters, a job, an amazing theatre teacher who goes the extra mile everyday for us, an amazing best friend, cloths on my back and many many many more. Don't take the little things for granted.
Till next time,
Tay

Theatre

So last week I had the PRIVILEGE to attend Utah's annual Theatre Conference. The people i met and the things I learned were absolutely amazing. The key note speaker was Anne Bogart. If you don't know her you probably should. She is now my inspiration when it comes to acting. I also had a chance to sing FOR Benj Pasek and Justin Paul. I sang "I Once Knew" from the song cycle they wrote, Edges. Anne gave all the kids there 7 points of advice.
1. Follow the Pulse
2. Make a Mark
3. Create the World You Want To Live In
4.Finish the Sentence
5. Be unreasonable
6.Bring Attention Where Attention Is Needed
7. Cultivate Attitude
My new favorite quote for theatre is "I do theatre cause I find life unacceptable":)