Let the Sunshine In

My creative drive has been down lately! And darnit I have not been able to think of anything to release my daily struggles with BUT writing/blogging! I know it sounds odd but as my fingers move across my laptop from homerow to the next letter I release all my fears, all my stupid insecurities, all my pain, and most importantly; all my worries. The constant bluggering of the World telling me I am not good enough is gone and it is just me, my mind, and my laptop busy at writing down my feelings.
I like to think of topics before hand for my Blog. I'll ask a few close friends, get their advise and go from there but once I am actually sitting down typing..
WHO KNOWS WHAT WILL COME OUT OF MY MIND!
Today I had the chance to see a Broadway hit Hair, The American Tribal Love-Rock Musical. Yes, the rumors ARE true. There is full frontal nudity in the Act I Finale. And YES! I know! Shame on me! I went on a Sunday.
This show was more than nudity, drugs, sex, war, or even hippies. It was simply beautiful. Like I can't use any other word.
BEAUTIFUL
Wow. You know I see A LOT of shows, and only a few ever really make an impression on my life. This one did! It taught me a really big lesson that I have been working on solidifying.
Life is beautiful, appreciate the blessings in life; no matter how small.
Isn't that true? In the directors notes I was really impressed with what he said "Hair isn't really about hippies, nudity, drugs or sex. It's about finding one's place. Eliminating extremes and discarding labels so that maybe, just maybe. It's possible to have a conversation that leads to understanding and change."
-Jerry Rapier
Now let us take this out of the context of this show and apply it to life. Isn't THAT true? This show and this exact statement couldn't have come at a more critical point in my life then now. When I have been trying every day to find beauty and joy in life!
I had a really good adult conversation with a close friend recently. In this conversation we cried and laughed and threw everyting out on the table and we were completely vulnerable to eachother and that made me appreciate her. I learn from another friend everyday the importance of staying strong and being a pilar of light and love no matter what anyone says or does and that makes me apprecaite him every single moment of my life. I love dearly a friend that works harder than anyone when she wants something. Who suffers through 12 hour days just to graduate. Who has the courage and strength no one can match and I love her dearly and that makes me appreciate her. I look at another friend and I see the world is sending him through a maze of trials and he has lost the spirit I once loved about him. But that makes me pray harder and harder for him and I send him MY love and MY light every day but that is why I appreciate him.
Today in church we were learning about having complete faith and listening to the prophet even when what he asks of us is hard. Read Kings 19:9-13.
"Be Strong, and of good courage. Be not afraid, stand firm in the faith. For the Lord will be with us, where ever we go. Be one, Be his, Be strong."
till next time,
-TK